Inspirational videos online

The following are some of my favourite videos online:

Paul Washer - the man who feared God



'Laminin' talk by Louie Giglio



"The Bridge"



'My Redeemer lives'

The greatest gift

The 'Ber' months have now arrived once more. Aside from the expected brrrr! cold weather, the month of good tidings and cheers, DECEMBER that is, is fast approaching. Yesterday, i was just strolling along Camden high street and went inside the Woolworths shop to look for a belated gift for my pastor's youngest daughter, Melbelle Rose when i heard something that made me smile. 'Chestnuts roasting on a open fire....' Ahhhh.. The warm fuzzy feeling.. Christmas, it's just around the corner.

While pondering the thought of the most awaited year end celebration, I remembered a song I wrote three years ago. It was November 2005 when it only took me an hour to finish two verses and a chorus of a song that I'd say is the best one i've ever written, I mean, the one God inspired me to write and sing about. It's called the THE GREATEST GIFT.. I know, so much and so many have already been written about Christmas that I would never compete or even claim to have composed a classic. For me, it just speaks so true of my heart, I'm just privileged to have been used for His purpose.

And just this week, while I was working, I was suddenly inspired to write a bridge for the song. It's taken me more than two years to make the addition but it was worth the wait. I was quite emotional when the words to the bridge were beginning to form. By the time i was singing the complete song, I was crying.

I give all the glory to God! For He alone deserves it. May it bless you just as it has blessed me!

THE GREATEST GIFT

Verse 1
A gift could bring a smile to someone's face
It brings surprise and warms the heart with joy
But once it's been unwrapped and been revealed
The moment's passed yet our lives go unchanged

Refrain
But/ So think about the One who gave away
The greatest gift someone could ever give to anyone
He had but one Son that He so loved
Yet chose to give Him up
So we could live and be redeemed
Back to Him

Chorus:
And so it came upon
A night like no other
Where a baby's to be born
On a lowly manger
To fulfill a destined promise
That's to redeem all of men
He was to be the perfect sacrifice
He is the greatest gift

Verse 2
What could drive a God so great and pure
To give so dear a person as His Son
For such a piece of nothing as a sinful man
It's because of love, it's because of love

(Repeat Refrain and Chorus)

Bridge:
Who am I?
That You promised to offer
The gift of life
That could last forever
It's so hard to believe
How much love You have shown me
On the cross where You suffered and died
Just to save me
There's nothing much I can give
This gift o Lord,
I receive

Thank God for the lemonade

I've been listening to Chris Rice lately and I am so loving his music and his songs...

If indeed life gave you lemons, thank God for the lemonade!




I love the part where it goes, "we're gonna need another straw. We're gonna need another straaaaaww.............."


So much for sad songs, eh!


Some of his songs i like:
- So much for sad songs
- Clumsy
- Pardon my dust
- Home tonight
- Spare an angel
- Cartoons

and many more...

Here I am to give

I thank God for the music and the words He has given me for this song.

HERE I AM TO GIVE
(Dec 28, 2007)

Here I am to give You glory
For all that You have done
Here I am to sing with gladness
the praises You deserve

Every song I sing
May it bless Your name
Every hand I raise
May it magnify You

So here I am to give
All to You my heart
To live for You forever
To give to You my everything
In all my days,
I will trust Your ways
For You are The Way, The Truth, The Life

Trust......

Here's the latest from me so far.

Well, i've got different sort of jobs now. Ever since our old lady died and the G's decided to let me go for particular reasons, i've been to different type of jobs ever since. Don't get me wrong though, i am happy where i am now. Sure, the pay and the job is not the same and not as easy as what it used to but i'm so much blessed i can never complain.

Besides, i have more time now. Which is why i was able to write this blog. (-:

Anyway, the coming weeks seem more promising. And today was a good one, i got to work part time in a real office environment. I know the PA job is just temporary but who'd ever thought i'd get to have my own desk, use a PC and have a telephone line. Not even me!

Oh well, God is good. He always has been.

Funny enough though, i have friends who are in the same situation as i am. I mean, i'm doing alright and i have no worries but for some of us, they're just clueless and worried of what lies ahead.

And sometimes, i keep thinking what would life be like without Someone to trust? Someone being our Omnipotent, Omnipresent God?

Which is why whenever i get to a point where i seem to lose it, i'm glad i know there's Someone i can always go to. Someone i can always trust. Because at the end of the day, that trust is the only thing i have left.

I trust in His promises and know that whatever comes my way, He allowed it and would turn out for my good. And sometimes, it may not be what i expect it to be, but i trust Him that much i believe He knows best.

Proverbs 3:5-6
"Trust in the Lord with all Your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight."

SO TRUE!!!!!

Changes.... A new beginning

Oh well. At least for me it is, it's a new beginning all together..

New year, new surrounding, new house, new challenges!

I've been sooo pre-occupied the past months it's taken me only this time to put something on my blog.

Ever since we moved house, it took us only just a week or two ago to finally sort out our broadband connection.

I never realised our moving house would take so much of our time, our energy and our minds. And i couldn't begin to say how it affected so many people and has changed so many situations i wouldn't know where to start.

But thank God we've overcomed. Truly, nothing is ever permanent in this world but change. And if you're not ready to let go and face the situation, nothing good will ever come out of it. I'm not speaking for myself though. I love where I am now. I enjoy my private time, oversleeping in my bed, lazily spending time in our newly bought couch and watching cheesy movies in our tv. But most of all, i love my precious moments alone with God, freely worshipping Him in my own time. I love that i could just go outside the house and do window shopping. Or ride the bus for 10-15 minutes and discover I'm in the heart of the city. Or go to work spending just 25 minutes of travel instead of 90. I love Camden and its shops and its atmosphere, it's so very London. But most of all, i love it that God made a way for His work to start in our place. We now have a weekly gathering every thursday in our converted mini- pad room.

I mean, God has His ways of blessing His children. And i'm just thankful for He blessed us in so many ways. This one being one of them.

And what's more, Dad finally decided to move out and end the relationship and stay with us in the flat. So, we've all spent our first Christmas together this year and of course this new year's as well.

Lately, i just stand amazed at what God is doing in my life and my family's. He's answering every prayer and proving to me what a Big GOD He is! I mean, there's still a lot of prayers i need to wait answers to but i can wait. All in God's time....

I'm just grateful that everytime i thought I'm beginning to lose it, He keeps proving me wrong!

It's been a while... Then have a peek at my past journal entries

Yeah, it's been a while.

I really haven't had the chance to update my blog for the past months (my, my! i can't believe it's been months already). Oh well....

Well, i've been preoccupied with so many things... ministry, work and so many more.. although, there's so much to say about what's happened, i could never sum it all. but all i can say is, God has been working and is working still. And I'm just privileged and blessed to be a part of it.

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Anyway, i was sorting out my stuff the other day and i came upon my personal journal of written thoughts and songs and i browsed through it and was intrigued at what i've written in the past. I got saved July of 2003 and as I read, I'm amazed at how God is changing me from glory to glory. And so i also wanted to put it here on my blog.. Hope you will also be blessed!

THE SPONGE (Written July 08, 2004, a year after I got saved)

Have you ever felt so down and so heavy you seem to have lost it sometimes? I know I have. Just recently, I felt as if I've been squeezed out, worn out and utterly tired out of my mind. And what's worse, that was what I was feeling spiritually. From the outside, no one had a clue what I was going through. And deep within, I knew I still had the connection to God, but somehow, I can't get through the line. Maybe because there was no signal..... FROM ME...

I don't know! I felt so tired of the environment I live in, sick of hearing the same things over and over again. I felt so overused and exposed. Nothing I hear or say ever sinks in. It felt too much for me, I can't hardly breathe. But then, even though I felt that way, I kept on believing I'd get over it one day.

Then one time, just as we were having our Wednesday devotion, I was moved by a force to finally open up and reveal what I was feeling inside. Our topic was about encouragement but I felt it touched openness too. For it made me realise that if I keep on nursing these feelings, I might just end up in ditch. Besides, these are the people I share the bathroom with everyday. Who else should I turn to? I mean, spiritually, why should I keep digging my grave?

So as I tearfully recounted the things I've felt, the thoughts I've kept, there seemed to be a release of sorts. Suddenly, I was carrying a lighter load. But there was still something there, an excess baggage. Then as I was tasked to close our devotion with a prayer, the Lord spoke to me in pictures.

I saw a sponge, all dried up and alone. Then a hand took the sponge, dipped it in a clean water which washed away the dirt, and squeezed it just enough to still have some water in it, put some washing liquid and used it again. I didn't know what the Lord wanted to say to me at first.

Then I realised, that could be me. I was the sponge! In my worship to God, I allowed myself to be squeezed out and dried up. Like a sponge when it's been dried up, if you use it to wipe away the dirt, it will just gather them on the surface that even if you puff it out, the dirt won't go away. That was me. Spiritually, I was dried up and worn out. Because I was tired of the situation, I was harbouring inside the negative aspects of what I was hearing and seeing. I was gathering the dirt. The pores to my understanding were blocked out that no amount of teaching would come in.

But then the Lord wanted to tell me that I could be made clean. If I humble down, learn to open up and understand, then all the sins that I've made will be washed away. For by His Son, Jesus Christ, we have all been saved when He died on the cross for our sins. He is the Living water. And through Him, can we be made clean. When I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior, I have been redeemed. And so, when I feel as though I have lost that connection, all I need to do is to go back again. Go back to His words and dip myself in the Living water and be cleansed. In doing so, I am opening to God's love.

I now realise that whenever I feel burdened, heavy or tired, all I have to do is freshen up! Be a sponge. Open up and absorb God's love. Don't squeeze yourself to dry, to get rid of things you want to get rid off. It won't. For God will never allow you to. Instead, open up and allow God to squeeze you up just right and just enough to absorb His love.

My prayer in moments like these:

LORD, DON'T LET ME DRY UP
Through Your Son, Jesus Christ, renew me again and refill me with Your Holy Spirit.
Lord, squeeze me just right, that I might be soaked in Your love.
AMEN...

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(next journal)

BIG CHANGES (written January 28, 2005)

These past few days, I have been contemplating on how I have come to change so gradually in all aspects of my life. Physically, I can feel I'm getting older (not that I am old). I mean, I'm not as fit as I used to (I do splits and kicks before since I do aiki-jitsu. he he!), my knee joints sometimes click with sudden movements. I also feel as though I have to constantly keep watch of what I eat. Not that I'm strict on diet, anyway (I just can't help it. I love my pack of bueno or a bag of sensations balsamic & vinegar flavor.. (-:)

I've also noticed some sad changes! I say sad because it makes me remember how sometimes work can be so depressing. Sometimes the job takes its toll and your inexperience leaves a mark. And the pain on your back, just don't seem to go away. Everyday tube or bus ride is your nap time as you can't keep your eyes from dropping off every time you get yourself in a comfortable position. Sometimes you wonder where you get your strength from. But then, that's another story...

Emotionally, I have overcome my struggles. My longing and sense of comfort have been kept at a distance. The comfortee has become the comforter. Suddenly, I'm in charge! And I can say I've handled it quite well.. My insensitivity have been thrown, awkwardness and pride put on aside leaving just a pure and heartfelt intent. I'm not saying I've grown to be a saint but I understand things better now and why they happen. I used to not let my emotions take control but now I've grown more mature at how I react to things. Suddenly, I don't just think of my needs. In fact, I think of my needs less and I feel happy doing so. Well, sometimes you still can't resist to treat yourself with lame excuses but who ever said you'd be perfect.

Mentally, I've become more wiser. Yes, wiser! I sometimes feel I've aged to leaps and bounds! Things are so clear to me now. My understanding seems to be so simple and right-in-your-face. Why don't people get it? Don't they know all the answers to their questions are written in the bible? If only people would look at the bible as if it's their diary or their self-help meditation books. Not some traditional memento, or you know? the 'not-for-me-just-for-the-oldies' kind of reasoning, or the 'so-boring-i-couldn't-keep-my-eyes-open' excuses. Man, how lame!

And spiritually, well... this is where it all started. If I haven't changed spiritually, I would have been a completely different person. You see, it affected every area of my life. Having Jesus in your heart and accepting Him as your Saviour, your Lord and Friend makes a big difference. This is where it begins and it's where it happens. You don't get to change overnight. Your willingness to accept His words and live His words are the barometers to change. You undergo the Refiner's fire until you may well be fit enough to shine like gold. You undergo struggles and persecutions but as you do, you tend to be more stronger and bolder to move on, to speak and take action.

What else can I say....


SUDDEN THOUGHTS...... (July 2003 to JANUARY 30, 2005)

Lessons I've learned in my walk with God (well, as of date written above)

1. Salvation... the only way
2. God's words are painful but it heals.
3. In Him, you find peace that passes ALL understanding
4. Give more of you, think less of your needs & think more of others
5. Contentment is the key
6. The gift of sacrifice - having the burden
7. Prayers can go where no man has ever gone
8. How far can I go? How much am i willing to take? (Patience!!)
9. Commitment
10. SUBMISSION - the big word!
11. For worship to be worship, it has to come with a price...

and more....

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GOD BLESS!